My Wish For You

My Wish For You

My one wish for you; my love.
May you find happiness, joy, eternal laughter
That it fill your life with such deliriousness
You ask for nothing more, in the after.

May you find someone who sees you as I do,
With imaginative, inspiring, loving wonder.
That you fall head over heals in-love,
And they are content enough to never ponder.

That they love as passionately as I do
with youthful, exuberant enthusiasm.
May you share always; never left empty, wistful...
I pray you never feel the width of that chasm.

My one wish for you; my love.
May you find, “the one,”
The one that changes your heartbeat
That they stay, always, in the life you have begun.

May they always touch and caress you
In loving warmth, that melts you through and through.
May they support and be your strength
When the darkness overwhelms, and you say, “I’m through.”

I wish for you, that you never know the loss
of meeting such spectacular grandeur that vanishes.
That you keep that loving glory all of your days,
And your love be present during, ashes to ashes...

My wish for you, love;
May you love so strong and fierce,
That the Devil himself is envious of your flame
So solid and concrete that nothing would pierce.

May fear never touch your heart
That it remains free and beautiful always.
That the years be kind and gentle
And you never hear the words, “we should part ways...”

May each day be better than the last,
so joyful, that you await each day as an eager child.
That arguments and sorrows be quickly distinguished,
And your travels be adventurous and wild.

I wish for you to find someone who holds you true
Who holds you tight and never lets go...
That they see all the beauty that I do,
Listen intently, love greatly and never cease to show.

May they accept your darkness...
And the many shades of its blackness.
May they share in all of theirs
Within those eternal storms, you find togetherness.

I wish all of this and more,
that your feet never touch the ground as you soar above.
May you never again feel the sting of loss...
And each day ends with, “goodnight my love.”

Dreamwalkers

Dreamwalkers

I open up into nothing,
I feel the infinite of all
And the silence of tranquility.

I sense where my heart should beat,
And feel a calming energy in its place
Life, becomes the beat of the heart.

Life is a dream, a shared dream...
One that the "awake" ones must traverse
As beacons, dreamwalkers among the sleeping.

We are the space, the emptiness, the truth
The liquid and the air... we just are...
We are the fire, the inner flame flickering in the dark.

We are the earth... and nothing
The transcendent and humbled,
The observers and willing guides.

I open into nothingness
Into the space that has always been,
Into the energy that flows unseen.

I let my heart find its way
From a thoughtful mind...
Free to just love, accepting what is.

We are the Dreamwalkers,
Not tethered to body or thought
But infinite in ourselves...

I am one, I am nothing,
I am the space, I am everything...
I am light, I am darkness... I am...

Inspire

Inspire

Awaken, open your eyes, your heart, your soul;
Awaken, open the windows and doors,
Let the light and life flood you, making you whole.

Smile, you were given a heartbeat;
Abilities to feel, touch, hear, smell,
Delectable senses making sensations a tasty treat.

You can hope, dream, reach for the unachievable!
See beyond that which is your life,
Have the will, the determination to reach the unthinkable.

Love, love because you are beautiful,
Love, be kind, be passionate and compassionate;
Love; let it change you, grow, have a heart that's full.

Courage! Be brave, dare greatly!
Be vulnerable, face the darkness,
The demons, the lies, the dark... fear you immensely.

Awaken, there is nothing to fear, but yourself...
That which has tormented and brought sorrow;
The cage we put upon ourself.

Be the ship that braves the uncharted seas,
The wind that challenges a mountain;
The ocean that spans all that it sees.

Be the flower that blooms at night;
Have perseverance to continue against the odds...
Find the strength to stand up and make a fight!

Inspire... open their eyes, their heart
Share, connect, be their beacon,
Shining in the dark and when they fall apart.

Encourage, be warm and kind
Be the hearth in the midst of winter;
Be the one that says, "no one gets left behind!"

Be the bird, free, soaring high
Give to those who need that extra hand...
Say Hello more than Goodbye.

Awaken, Achieve, Love, Inspire!
Take the steps in the dark, so others may follow;
Help them climb the mountain; higher and higher.

Smile, give, greet, help and love!
Give hugs and open doors
Be the light, the step so others may rise above.

If I get lost

If I get lost 

If I get lost, please remind me;

To open my eyes, 

To see the world around me.

To open my heart,

And remember my loved ones;

That I am loved, and have love.

To open my mind,

To not shy away from the darkness;

The gnawing, scraping, hurting, darkness.

Remind me of sharing and caring;

I may be scared, but I am not alone.

Remind me of yesterday, of happiness,

Love, joy, the courage to love another.

Remind me that though the terrible is frightening,

It’s in the past, and not who I am.

Have me lower my hands from eyes,

To see the others that share my light;

The light that spreads into the deepest depths, 

The darkness, the monsters, the evil.

Remind me that I have a path, I have a journey,

And I have the strength, determination to take those steps.

Remind me if I get lost, or if I stray the path

That I was never truly lost, just a little mislead. 

Open my eyes, open my heart, open my mind;

Lower my hands from covered eyes, 

Touch my heart with yours, 

And question why, why I am not being true to me.

Remind me of the love and loved ones,

Remind me to climb the mountain, to spread my wings and be free! 

The Niggle

What is the niggle?
What is it that set ablaze to all I know?
Is it fear? An imperfection? a tingling doubt?
Is it the past catching up with the present?

My heart is in ashes, as I watch the flames
flicker and heat... on my dying heartbeat.
All set a sunder, I am helpless to distinguish
turn back time is my only wish.

I have to believe beneath the icy front
My love is dying inside as the flames
dance upon her once warm heart,
And the pain is eating her as it is me.

I have to believe the love we feel
was both felt and shared by our charred hearts.
That she misses me as a flower
Misses the Sun, and I miss her

What is that niggle that has undone?
Has burrowed and split what was true
And turned my sunny world to every shade of blue.
Oh, what has that niggle done?

Two hearts that began to beat as one
The deceptive niggle would have some fun.
"Push me away will you!" The niggle would say
"I'll burn it all! And ruin your sunny day!"

I have to believe the tears I shed
She cries them too, from eyes and heart in blood red.
That her insides feel as torn as mine
that she misses her hand in mine.

I have to believe she misses
the warmth of me and all my kisses.
Oh, that damn niggle!! Has won this day
Left two hearts shambled in dismay.

Two hearts that love each other
and keep guard over the magic that is.
Two souls, beautiful, kind and free
she was always meant for me...

What is the niggle? For this I do not know
But I will search hi and I will search low
To find the niggle that has crushed and torn
an amazing love that was deservingly born.

My love, I know in my soul
You are the half to make me whole.
I'll not let that niggle, whatever he may be
Be the last thoughts of you and me.

Come back my love

Come back love,
Come back from the darkness...
Let my love be a guiding light.
Let my love be your warmth
In the bitterness of cold;
Let my love be your strength
when the unknown takes your courage.
Let my love be your comfort
when the demons begin to scrape and gnaw.
Come back from the darkness;
Remember my smile, my touch,
The laughes, the joys, our loving embrace.
Come back to the light;
Feel my warmth, my strength, my love.
You are mine and I am yours,
Come back my love
Remember my hands, my kisses,
Remember my kind stare and loving caresses.
Remember that I also need you;
I need your light, for my world is dark
I need your strength...
To take the steps I cannot make alone.
I need your warmth...
The cold of life has chilled me to the bone.
I need your love, and loving embrace;
I'm only half... you are missing.
Come back my love,
Come back from the darkness...
Come back and make me whole,
Come back with the heart you stole.
Remember my love, remember the wonderfulness
Remember us... remember our love.

Crimson dancer

Caffè lattes and mochas;
I see her, I see her amidst the swirling,
Dancing in the Jello, in the haze of twilight.
She is a beacon, lighting my darkness,
I can see those corners that were hidden
I can see the teeth, the claws, the demons...
She twirls and moves, hypnotizing... euphoric
Naked, but a red scarf swinging in the air.
Moving, lighting, bearing what I cannot,
The darkness, the monsters, the ashes of my mind.
Thoughts race of forgetting, all those years ago
The demons... oh so clever, dripping their stench;
she dances, her breasts firm, point to that...
That which has secretly haunted me.
Jello splashing below the soft flesh of feet
It's crimson color spreading...
In the crimson darkness, she dances.
Like moths to a flame, I'm beaconed...
I'm there, naked, vulnerable, cold.
She dances, the darkness, the mist, the demons
All swirling around me like tornadoes
No longer can I hide, no longer can I run!
But my body moves... she dances...
In the darkness the teeth, claws, rage
they move! The light has awakened!
my legs begin to bob, like a floater on a fishing line
Up then down, Up then down as I stare;
Forgotten horrors begin to emerge in the mist,
Taloned arms and blood soaked legs.
She dances... bare breasts never swaying;
Questions begin to flood, Who? Why? What?
"Who is the woman dancing?" The light...?
My body begins to imitate, moving...
Talons scraping, teeth gnawing, Jello splashing!
She dances... cold, my body follows, dancing...
The darkness, the memories, the child,
Play out in the light shining in the mist.
Anger, sorrow, pain lash at my nakedness
In the crimson dark with the crimson dancer.
The woman... a beacon of light;
In the light, she comforts and warms,
In the light, she shows the darkness, the demons...
She is hope, she is sorrow, she is forgiveness.
She is the light that was ever absent;
So the demons played and scraped in the darkness.
Filling my mind with the stench of foul laughter
My body with the aches of a thousand slashes.
She dances... I dance, seeing, feeling, awakening
Look into the mist, look at the child...
Cold, lonely, frightened, crying.
Bodies glistening, crimson, naked...
The crimson dancer and I dance in the twilight.
The child, the demons, the child, the demons;
We dance, splashing, lighting, exposing...
The past, the dark, the demons;
Feeling, the lost feelings that once were buried
Anger! The child can bare no more.
Show me crimson dancer!
light what I cannot see, what I have locked away.
Fear of what was left behind, guarded...
The child endured, sacrificed, survived!
The visions, the memories, swirling; demons reaching!
Lost in thought, in time the mist is engulfing!
It is time, the strength, the compassion,
The love, the anger, the forgiveness...
I look up from the mist, no longer dancing...
I see a child, the crimson dancer, twirling in the light.
The guilt, the burden, the shame, the anger...
Released into the mist, the darkness,
I sit where a lonely child once was,
Watching, smiling as the two dance in the light.